suddenly. i lost my sense of direction in life. maybe this is the period when my decision will determine the rest of my life and my future. i cant believe that BBD and i'm heading for SIM. i cant believe that he wan me to retake my As. reason being he dun wanna pay for my school fees. he invested so much in stocks and all. now i think we're pretty broke now. i cant imagine how will my life be like for the next half of the year. will i get accepted into NUS FASS? even if i get a place, will i be persuing wat i wan in my life? or will i be happier and satisfied with a place in SIM persuing my direct honours? with BBD i'm lost. with BBD i donnoe where to go. maybe my grades are too average. damn i hate sg education system.
i feel so lost. everything is piling up. my sis's results. my mom's problem. my dad's financial stability. my future. my education. i'm responsible of everything. i'm only 19. dun they get it that i'm only 19?! with the overwhelming sense of loneliness, i'm exploding inside. i'm dying inside. cant God see i cant take it anymore?